I cried when I had no shoes…

until I met a man who had no feet…

So…

i had a customer/friend call the other night asking if i could help him set his margins in the software he is using to write his book. no problem. we set it up for me to come to his place at 7 that evening, but when i got there he wasn’t there. seeing as i was just doors from the place i used to rent on Chartres, and still had a filing cabinet and a couple of boxes of things to get out of there, i went down there to get those loaded on the hand-cart that i had there. it was a struggle, as the filing cabinet was horrendously heavy, but i got it all loaded and headed back to my apartment about 8 blocks away.

so, off i go, dumping the load twice on the way and having to reload it and redistribute the weight. i finally get it home and lifted into the lobby. i was pretty wiped-out, so decided to leave it all for unloading the next day and headed up the stairs, when i fell and messed up my hip. i lived with it for a couple of days until Thursday night i couldn’t put weight on it at all and decided to go to university hospital’s emergency the next day. It was way out of alignment and made a crunching sound when it moved. i was certain it was broken. I went into the emergency room friday morning and 17 hours later they see me and do an x-ray. sprained, not broken. they give me some Motrin and some muscle relaxers and send me home last night.

this morning the hospital called and told me that the radiologist viewed the x-rays [apparently they be short-staffed and x-rays stack up until they can be read], and that it was dislocated, so they sent a car and i went in to have it put back in place. i just got home. needless to say, i don’t get to have jaden over this weekend, but there is no way i could deal with him at the moment.

i spoke with social services while i was there because my health problems are such that i’ve not been able to work and bring in any income. i’ve only been able to pay 500$ towards the rent since i moved in on january 20, which leaves me owing about 2800$ including april. there is no way of course, so the landlord has told me that i will have to make other arrangements as soon as possible. social services are no help at all, as about all they could do is give me a sheet of paper outlining what food banks are available – a list i already have and just this past tuesday hooked up with a food bank up on rampart to get a box of groceries once a month. it’s a help.

with the stroke last november my brain has not exactly worked right, the recent heart attack and now this latest, the doctors have told me and i pretty much determined anyhow that i am going to have to live somewhere where i have some kind of assisted living environment. so, i’ve been trying to figure out what friends i have that might be in a position to take me in for awhile. at least until i can fend for myself and make an income again. wherever i end up i will apply for food stamps and i’ll start the process of applying for ssi. so, we’ll see.

sooner or later i’m going to have to do something about this depression. it’s dogged me since The Thing, and it’s pulled me down to where i can hardly function through a day anymore.

I don’t feel great about posting this. It’s private, but i feel my friends are entitled to know what’s going on in my life.

Just who the hell does New Orleans Councilwoman Cynthia Hedge-Morrell think she is?

Pulled over by State Police after barreling down the shoulder of Interstate 10 at close to 100 miles per hour with a blue light flashing, New Orleans Councilwoman Cynthia Hedge-Morrell yelled at a state trooper: “Do you know who I am? … What the hell are you stopping me for?”

Just who the hell does she think she is?

Personally, I wouldn’t know her if she came up to me and bit me on the ass, and secondly, I could care less.

With all of the problems this city and its residents are grappling with, we have a city councilwoman who is showing us exactly what she is – a self-righteous, ignorant AND stupid BITCH, who has represented herself and our city more than badly.

This is sickening for so many reasons, not the least of which is that she feels entitled to do what she has done [and not for the first time, mind you]; that she has blue flashing lights – emergency lights which are restricted to law enforcement vehicles, on her taxpayer supplied vehicle; and that she [usually] has a law-enforcement driver to tote her to where she needs to be, among other things. This latter is an appalling reality of a waste of law-enfocement resources in a city with the nation’s highest murder rate, don’t you think?

In this case she was ‘late for a meeting’. OMG! Big deal. This does not give her the right to violate the laws and/or to put others lives in danger. If she wants to commit suicide, more power to her, but to use that multi-ton SUV as a weapon is criminal. Yet, SHE DID NOT EVEN RECEIVE A TICKET!

This disgusts us all, as it should.

Although state law prohibits anyone but law enforcement officers from speeding and using flashing lights, State Police did not issue Hedge-Morrell a citation. According to State Police, a trooper has discretion over writing tickets. On Wednesday, Morrell said she still believes troopers should not have detained her.

“I was trying to get to the meeting, and he [the state trooper] couldn’t explain to me why he was detaining me any further,” she said. “To this day, I don’t know why he gave me the warning. I was late for a meeting.”

Awww… stupid, poor little city councilwoman. Bite me… Get the hell out of our city. We don’t need you and we don’t want you.

I expect far better from our elected officials. You should, too.

Sometimes…

I wonder if god will ever forgive us for what we do to each other.

Then other times I take a good look around, and realize that god left this place a long time ago.

- paraphrased from Blood Diamond.

My Hero…

Knut is the polar cub that was abandoned by his mother, that animal rights activists wanted put to death because it would be ‘humiliating’ to raise him until he is capable of taking care of himself. The mother ignored Knut and his brother, who later died.

Go Knut!

 

Links…

Well, it’s been my habit to post a link whenever I refer to a story I’m commenting on. Unfortunately, most of these links are only live for a short period. If I post the whole story, I’m  guilty of republishing without permission, and it’s not realistic, time-wise, to request permission. So… I’ll just repost the damn thing and wait ’til they ask me to remove it, if they ask. Nuff said.

Frick!!! It’s looking more & more like…

I’m going to have to move into an assisted-living type environment sooner rather than later. Lost the use of my legs for about 35 minutes the other day when I woke up. Went back to sleep and the signals from my brain to my legs worked like they were ’sposed to, and I could use my legs properly.  They’d been giving me problems but not that bad. This is scary, and what happens if the use of them doesn’t come back? Crap!

1953

In 1953 (the year I was born)

Dwight Eisenhower becomes president of the US. President Eisenhower announces that he has given France $60 million for the Indochina War Edmund Hillary and Tenzing Norkay reach the top of Mt. Everest Julius and Ethel Rosenburg are executed by electrocution at Sing Sing Prison The Korean War ends in stalemate The first color television sets go on sale for about $1,175 Ron Jeremy, Tony Blair, Pierce Brosnan, and Kim Basinger are born New York Yankees win the World Series Detroit Lions Win the NFL Championship Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury is published Elvis Presley records for the first time 68% of all United States television sets were tuned in to I Love Lucy to watch Lucy give birth to little ricky.

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

Death has been on my mind a lot lately…

One in five people is set to die a “shameful death” new research has claimed.

A book by sociology professor Allan Kellehear, claims that 20% of the population will die alone, ravaged by dementia and without dignity.

In “A Social History of Dying”, Professor Kellehear argues this kind of death would be co5nsidered “shameful” by previous generations.

In a bleak portrait of death in the 21st century, the professor from the University of Bath, claims the act of dying is becoming increasingly “tragic and antisocial”.

He argues that medical advances are enabling us to live longer but society is at a loss with how to treat this large ageing population. He said: “Most people think only fleetingly about how they will die and usually it surrounds some romantic notion dying in our sleep at home. This couldn't be further from the truth – we are significantly more likely to die a prolonged death in a nursing home or hospital, preceded by multiple organ failure, pneumonia or dementia.

“As we live longer, there is every chance that we will outlive those friends and family who have traditionally seen us through our last years. It is also likely that we will have exhausted the financial means by which we would pay professionals to look after us instead.”

He argues that the act of dying may have actually been handled better by earlier generations with “good” peasant deaths surrounded by friends and family.

He claims that the rise in “shameful deaths” is leading an increasing number of elderly people to consider suicide in order to take control and manage their own death.

Kellehear urges governments worldwide to re-assess how the act of dying is treated before it becomes a major crisis. He said: “Whether it is introducing more liberal policies that enable people to better manage how they die, a closer examination of medical ethics, better training for nursing homes or support for people who care for the elderly- something needs to happen.

“We need to tackle the subject of dying head on. Talk about dying, let alone our own death, is not a popular theme for politicians or public debate. But there is no escape from the tragedy that will befall many of us when we die.”

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/pressass/20070404/tuk-one-in-five-face-shameful-death-6323e80.html